M i z z [ b l a c k o u t ]

Currently I am listening to Tevin Campbell’s “Can We Talk For A Minute”. I don’t know why my head is hurting but it is.

Anyways. I have about a week now until I leave for college. Most of my friends have already moved into their dorms or getting ready to move into their dorms at other colleges. I want to already have the experience of college. Plus I want to hurry up and cry about my mom leaving me alone for the first time. Ugh. Darn emotions and attachments.

In all honestly, I am actually excited to move but at the same time there are so many things that I’m anxious and scared about. I am just ready to get this over with. There’s so much running around in my head. I think that’s what’s causing my headaches at the moment (despite the fact that I’m sitting RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE SUBWOOFER to my speakers while listening to Destiny’s Child “Cater 2 U” plays…the songs changed by the time I got here.)

I am ready to make new friends and I’m ready to get good grades and look for money to pay for my tuition for the upcoming years. I don’t want anything to cause me to NOT come back for 3 years. I am determined to graduate from Stephen F. Austin State University.

Oh bageezus. My head is getting worse it seems. I shall end this blog. I love all those who have supported me and have been there for me. I miss all my friends in Houston and I will NEVER forget you guys!

-Mizz[blackout]

Everything is coming down crashing. I am hating everything going on around me. I want the days to whine down faster so I can be in another place and have a better state of mind. I shall not allow the influences of the Space City also known as Houston into my life. I cannot allow that. There’s too much to come back and kick my ass. I’m not up for it. Waiting for things to pass is long process. It’s only a matter of time when the faces of these people blurs in the distance of my past. I shall return to them not for I will not pleased with the outcome. I hate them because I hate me. Simply put. The end. Goodbye.

-Mizz[blackout]

It’s crazy how I looked over my old posts the other night. The things that I used to blog about are ridiculous. However, it just shows how much of a young’en I was about a year and half ago. Hmm. Let’s do the math. I started my blog March of 2009. It is now August of 2010. Well right off the bat, that’s already one year. Then March is the 3rd month. August is the 8th month. That’s 5 months. Hmm. I haven’t reached one and half but basically it’s getting to be pretty old.

One thing though that I love about my old blogs was the lack of grammar and missing words/phrases. Oh well. I have matured since then. Well at least I try to make sure that my blogs make sense. This one probably doesn’t considering that this is just me rambling on and on about N-O-T-H-I-N-G. Lol

Okay. I really nothing I want to say. Well I do but I don’t want to talk about it because really it’s no big deal and another, Tumblr is not the appropriate place to talk about this considering that it’s about some people.

-Mizz[blackout]

P.S. I know what you’re thinking! “She’s talked about other people before in her blogs although she didn’t mention names! What a hypocrite!” Well you know what?! Eff Yoo! I have respect for this person, not to say that I don’t of that other person/people that I have talked about in previous blogs, but I just don’t want to blab on and on about something so minor that concerns this person/these people. Uhm. Whatever.

Yeah I know what you’re thinking. “I don’t know what the f**k you’re talking about! I’m NOT racist!” Well face it. Everyone has some form of racism or prejudices in them. Someone could say very negative things about Latinos, Blacks, Whites, or any other race/nationality out there and not realize that that is very offensive.

You may not notice it but when you are with your group of friends or family, do you say something about another race that is based off a stereotype? Do you do impressions of a certain race because the stereotypes that are out there? Basically, you get these stereotypes from TV and family. I don’t want to call anyone’s family racist or anything but I have heard of people saying that they hate a certain race. I ask them why and they simply say “I don’t know. Ever since I was little my parents hated them, and so do I…” Does that make sense? Not to me. But it’s not our fault. We’re all imperfect and that’s our BIGGEST flaw of all time. That we do things out of imperfection.

I know that I don’t extremely hate a certain race but I know that sometimes certain cultures piss me off and I know that at times I don’t like to be around them. But that also brings out another reason why some people don’t like certain races or nationalities. They may have had a bad experience them once and they take it out on the rest.

For example: There are some black people that hate everyone white. No matter how friendly they maybe, they hate them. But you see they take it out on every white person because the slavery mess that happened YEARS BACK IN HISTORY! However, they are not fond of white people. Here’s my reasoning. I don’t hate you unless you do something to piss me off. I hear of a white person beating up a black person, or any other race at that, I would get upset and I would hate THAT person.

I feel that everyone has what I would like to call “Ignorant Racism” in them. Not something they really understand or accept but it’s in them unwillingly.

You’re wondering where ALL this came from. It was triggered from a conversation with my fellow class of 2010 classmate Juan on Facebook IM. Also, this topic had been brewing inside me for a while now. Thank you for reading.

-Mizz[blackout]

*Note: I had already attempted to blog this but stupid Safari decide to NOT display this webpage and my dumb butt clicked refreshed and it brought me back “Add Text Post” on Tumblr w/ NOTHING OF WHAT I ORIGINALLY WROTE. So bare with me as I TRY to remember what the crap I wrote the first time.*

OhEmGee. I can’t believe school starts at the end of the month! I’m completely in brick-shitting mode at the moment. I am scared but on the other hand I’m somewhat anxious to leave already because all this anticipation is pissing me. I mean I’m stuck in my house, not really doing anything with my time (except for yesterday when I went to Discovery Green in Downtown Houston with my mom and watch Bend It Like Beckham. It was nice.) Oh well, just a matter of few weeks, and then I’m on to college life in another city.

OH! If you are NOT watching the second season of Jersey Shore (MTV), then you must be clinically sick!!! The same goes for Make It or Break It (ABCFamily) and Teen Mom (MTV). Those are the shows to watch this summer on Tuesdays and Thursdays. OH! And how can I forget The Real Housewives of New Jersey! (Which comes on Mondays!…On Bravo) If you love drama, tans, accents, gymnastics, teenagers, babies, and all things in the category of “reality tv” THEN YOU MUST WATCH! Oh wait, Make It or Break It only fits one of those descriptions, but SITLL YOU SHOULD BE WATCHING IT!

Well, the month of August has begun. Let the back to school sales begin and let the anxiety of “HOLY CRAP! I’M STARTING COLLEGE” kick in. I know for it’s gonna hit pretty hard when I get dropped off on campus in a few weeks. >_<

-Mizz[blackout]
(P.S. The following is a LOT of product placement done by choice. I’m not getting paid to promote these shows but I’m just addicted to watching them THAT MUCH! Lol)